It looks like the new year resolutions thing has always been hot in United States and some other countries. The truth is we don’t do that here in my land, or at least I don’t hear anybody talking about the famous to-do list for the coming year. I could garantee that the words most said regarding expectations for the new year are love, peace and prosperity, being this last one the most palatable.

Someone asked me once what my resolutions were for new year, I think that was for the 2010, I can’t really remember now. I didn’t know how to answer that question, or no, no that I didn’t know, it is simply not part of my nature to make those resolutions as it is not part of my culture, but I do believe it’s mandatory to set up some short and long-terms goals.

Why waiting until the very last day of the year to make these resolutions? it is not a stupid question. Surely most of you will think it is the perfect day as it is ending and marking the beginning of a new period that supposes some new challenges, new things, new all and that is why a little list sounds like a good idea to not let anything behind. This is logical and it’s understandable, but what happen with the sort of things that take more than a year to finally get to a successful conclusion, or with the things you can’t change?

I have thought that maybe these new year resolutions help people have a north and define what they truly want for their lives, but I also think that lots of those things they say will be done for the new year they actually never give it a go, or maybe they start and don’t finish them, so what the heck do they waste their time to make a new list for when they haven’t done the previous ones? What sort of game is that then?

The only thing I wish for the new year is that my luck turns out good. The last 2 years of my life were not the best and there is very little to rescue from them, so I truly wish this time life brings me good things, that none of those memories from the past could make me waste my energy and thoughts in unworthy things and that I could focus on be better each day.

Last year I started recharged with good batteries and totally confident that 2011 was going to be a good year. I sensed it, I had the feeling and I even was happy that was for sure, something told me that was for sure. My mind refused to think negatively, in fact the whole positivism took control on me and that was sensational, but those good energies didn’t do at all because I can’t say 2011 was a good year. So, where did all that good vibe come from? What sort of thing made me think and feel that I was going to achieve big things this year? I am clueless.

These days I have caught myself with that same sensation that things are going to change and that success will be knocking at my life’s doors. It’s the same feeling I had last year, but this time is stronger. I feel like 2012 is going to be my year of glory, it’s going to mark the beginning of a life full of good things in every aspect of my life and I won’t have time to think of all the pain and sorrow that accompanied me during the 2011 and part of the 2010.

Since I have been there and done that, now I am afraid of letting myself go to those good portents my mind is making out. I would like to think that all the things I am feeling regarding a major improve of my life are real and they will happen, but I am just afraid to fall into the same disappointment of last year.

This is why the only so called resolution I will have is trying to believe in myself a bit more and see life from a different and new point of view. Some people say “there is not bad lasting more than 100 years nor even a body that can hold it” so I am going to go with the flow. Something good has to happen.